To the RESQ.

I don’t even know what to do anymore. I’m not sure what exactly made me mad. Maybe it’s doubts. Seeing a bit of my past makes me wonder how I got to THIS future. This future with a husband and a daughter at 21, when I’m barely an adult myself. There’s no passion in my life anymore, other than the love for my daughter. There’s no way my life could change now. I’m literally trapped. I can’t divorce him. He wouldn’t even let me break up with him while we were dating.

I’m scared of who I’m turning into. I don’t want to rebel against my own life, but can I just sit back and be unhappy?

So, I’ve decided that Through the Fire and the Flames is actually about an unfinished J.R.R. Tolkien book.

Just wanted to share my theory with all of you.

I’m really sick of Dan talking about Jared’s ex-girlfriend.

Seriously, there’s no reason to bring her up,

and I don’t understand why he does it.

She caused so much shit for the first few months,

and now that she’s stopped,

I’d like to just not think about her ever.

I just really want to move on with my life,

and not think about people who tried to ruin it.

GOSH.

My birthday was pretty amazing, even though I needed to work.

My dad got me a Wii.

And Jared and Dan got me DDR.

I bet you can’t guess what Jared and I have been doing for the past few days.

I got…$120 total in cards from my grandparents and my mom.

($50 from my mom and my Mamaw, $20 from my Grandma.)

Jared and I spent $43 on clothes today.

3 pairs of shoes, 3 shirts, and 2 pairs of pants.

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This post was pointless.

We’re moving into our new apartment today.

I’m very excited.

It’s not very far from here, but it’s a lot nicer than the one we’re in now.

The end.