To the RESQ.

taratantrum — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 05:09:03 +0000

I don’t even know what to do anymore. I’m not sure what exactly made me mad. Maybe it’s doubts. Seeing a bit of my past makes me wonder how I got to THIS future. This future with a husband and a daughter at 21, when I’m barely an adult myself. There’s no passion in my life anymore, other than the love for my daughter. There’s no way my life could change now. I’m literally trapped. I can’t divorce him. He wouldn’t even let me break up with him while we were dating.

I’m scared of who I’m turning into. I don’t want to rebel against my own life, but can I just sit back and be unhappy?

Dragonforce.

taratantrum — Sun, 30 Dec 2007 05:18:08 +0000

So, I’ve decided that Through the Fire and the Flames is actually about an unfinished J.R.R. Tolkien book.

Just wanted to share my theory with all of you.

Christmas.

taratantrum — Sun, 18 Nov 2007 05:35:21 +0000

Jared and I got our first Christmas tree together today.

It’s kind of silly how excited I am about that. But, it’s another first for us.
I get excited about the most mundane things with him – like grocery shopping.

I’m just so happy.

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taratantrum — Mon, 12 Nov 2007 07:12:59 +0000

I’m really sick of Dan talking about Jared’s ex-girlfriend.

Seriously, there’s no reason to bring her up,

and I don’t understand why he does it.

She caused so much shit for the first few months,

and now that she’s stopped,

I’d like to just not think about her ever.

I just really want to move on with my life,

and not think about people who tried to ruin it.

GOSH.

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taratantrum — Tue, 02 Oct 2007 05:15:12 +0000

My birthday was pretty amazing, even though I needed to work.

My dad got me a Wii.

And Jared and Dan got me DDR.

I bet you can’t guess what Jared and I have been doing for the past few days.

I got…$120 total in cards from my grandparents and my mom.

($50 from my mom and my Mamaw, $20 from my Grandma.)

Jared and I spent $43 on clothes today.

3 pairs of shoes, 3 shirts, and 2 pairs of pants.

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This post was pointless.

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taratantrum — Sun, 16 Sep 2007 04:26:23 +0000

I wish people would just let shit go.

Sleep deprivation.

taratantrum — Fri, 14 Sep 2007 03:09:55 +0000

I got plenty of sleep.

But I’m still exhausted.

I’m working 28 hours this week. In three days.

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Let’s start over.

taratantrum — Sun, 19 Aug 2007 21:52:53 +0000

We’re moving into our new apartment today.

I’m very excited.

It’s not very far from here, but it’s a lot nicer than the one we’re in now.

The end.

Mad love.

taratantrum — Wed, 08 Aug 2007 20:08:37 +0000

So, Jared, Dan, and I went to look at apartments today.

Yeah, that was fun.

We went to one that I really liked.
Jared liked it.
But, Dan is being kind of difficult.

It’s only 2 blocks away, but it’s bigger than this one. The kitchen was just redone.
The bedrooms are HUGE.
It’s gas heated, though.
I don’t care. I want to move there now.

Financial planning sucks.

taratantrum — Mon, 06 Aug 2007 15:57:07 +0000

So, that interview sucked. I chose to not even have a personal interview. It costs $250 to get licensed, which I don’t have. It’s pure commission, no base pay for the first year. And even with residual pay the next year, it would only be about $6,000 base pay. He said I could make up to $30-35,000 the first year, but there’s no promises. I’m just not in a point in my life where I can take risks like that.